no one tells you how to grieve
a loss you never gained
love bottled up inside
unconditionally
with nowhere to go
but down my eyes
our love
never had a chance to grow
was never meant to be seen
by anyone but me

while the birds are singing
it’s silent on your side
the cars keep moving
as the people keep walking
the dogs are happy
as the sun is still shining
everybody is talking
like nothing happened
the birds are singing
while you can’t
anymore

i came to the ocean
to find my calm
but just like me
there seems to be a storm
waves are crashing
in 4 different directions
fighting for space
breaking the other
but all is water
all is the same
thoughts and emotions
fear and peace
try to observe
when a wave curves
and the tide comes in
there’s no way to win

there was no way to tell
what came first
the rain or the mood
it all flowed together
in a vortex of solitude

my friends still look at me with pity
when we talk about you
and the hurt you’ve put me through

i had quit my job
rejected my first apartment
spend weeks crying on my moms couch
until my tears dried out
and empty feeling settled in
cause you found someone else

you told me suddenly
‘’when i look at her i see myself’’
the words still hurt me
but now i can finally see
we were never meant to be
merely here to teach me to love
but resulted in me being afraid to open up
again

keep your chin up my dear
even on days when you’re not feeling it
when the clouds are too heavy
and all you see is black
try to roll your shoulders back

your body doesn’t know the difference
stand a little taller
fix your posture, help her think
bring mind and body back in sync

especially on the hard days
listen for sounds that are mellow
and watch the sky turn yellow
it’s all for you my dear
don’t forget to look up