just be yourself
that’s what they say
but what if you don’t like you
is it okay to change?

i’d like to be more considerate
give more energy
be a better me
are we still we
if we go down that road
is us still us
if we keep changing
keep improving, keep moving
nothing remains the same

when the images are fading
can we keep the frame?

i am unsure
where to go
how to feel
on this roundabout
of choices and doubt
do i go up or down
when I leave

just breathe

i need more time
to decide my life
to look at the options
but the views are foggy
‘you have to be careful’
‘don’t forget to look’
left, right, left
everything is spinning
is it too late
to go back to the beginning

for someone who loves to live in the moment
i sure behave like an opponent

hungry, checks time
sleepy, checks time
another episode, checks time
a glass of wine?, checks time

i wished to live more freely
take actions because of feeling
i wished to let my heart speak loudly
and doing it oh so proudly

i get lost sometimes
forget where I'm going
or where i came from
i can only think in circles
black and big ones
jumping against each other
treating my head as a playground for adults
exchanging jokes for insults
a journey for results
you have to do better
we have to keep going
i tell myself as i try to move
through the sea of bouncy balls
but the darkness is too heavy
as i feel the quicksand getting me
can someone take my hand
please

don’t tell me I'm pretty
don’t praise me for looks
when fleeting faces
get averse by ages
get colder shoulders
when years go by

don’t try to hide now

i dare you to look
beyond the surface
and into me
what is it you truly see?

sometimes when I'm alone
my mind takes me places
i don’t want to go
i am scared
the future, the present, the past
it is all going too fast
i don’t think i can keep up
a bigger house, a faster car
i feel like i am in a war
inside my head
and i can’t break out
everything just seems so loud
try to keep it down
no
you have to move along
standing still is going backwards
do you have any last words?