i am not sure anymore
what love is supposed to be like
that nervous butterfly feeling
thinking about them constantly
wondering if it’s the same for them
all that feeling of overwhelm

or this calming comfort
where i can be myself completely
even dance with my inner child
knowing we will be safe
no need to wonder what would be
in this reality

i am not sure about love anymore
it was never like this before

i am dressed and packed
in all shades of green
trying to see the world
or hiding from my dream
i’m traveling alone
miles from all that I know
only to find love
in a person dressed like home
it’s everyone's wish
but is it mine
grounded by the earth
while looking at the clouds
seven, eight, nine
maybe it’s better to stay here
camouflaged by mothers green

it’s like a warm summer morning

the first bite of good food

skinny dipping in the ocean

a converted van on the road

it’s like a lick from your pet

your house that is just cleaned

as easy walk in the mountains

like throwing a coin in a fountain

it’s all these feelings combined

that would make up a small amount

of all the love that you will find

we must be crazy
to build lives on cliffs
on crumbling rocks
next to moving madness
what if she becomes sad
what if there’s a storm
washing away
everything you’ve worked for
but we can’t live in fear
right?
if you fall in love
it’s hard to stay away
so you risk your life
and hope they’ll let you stay

now i am
not so much in love with you
as i am with myself
embraced my insecurities
fell in love with my mind
the way it sees
feels and deals
at a pace that suits me
now i am
loving me too

my life is about to change
for better or worse
i think it will be better
but who knows

it’s a leap of faith
a pursue of a dream
of turning my pinterest board
into reality

the uncertainty is scary
but so is standing still
an illusion of security
will not bend my will