are you ever in doubt?
is this the right decision
leaving all i know behind
unsure what I'll find
in this place that is foreign
but feels familiar
maybe home to a former me
a pirate perhaps?
could be why i love the sea

constant movement
life hidden underneath
breathtaking views, literally
i know there’s beauty in the unknown
but it’s still scary until shown

my mind goes in many directions
takes vacation days
without any permission
says my heart had a wonderful vision

i always think the grass is greener
and go ahead to find out
sometimes I'm right
although i don’t see
cause i’m thinking about the next place to be

i know i should slow down
but life is excited when you don’t
so I don’t

my mind keeps traveling
like her life is dependent
meanwhile my heart waits patiently
to live her life as intended

i aspire to be like the ocean
fluid but strong
flirtatious but sincere
i admire the absence of fear
to let the waters flow
the happy and the sad
to create a safe space
in being who you are
to be a comfort to many
a sense of home in the night
somewhere for people to write about
some wishful thinking
anything
to keep from sinking

i feel lost
i know what i want to do
how i picture my life
who i want to be
it’s the mountain I see
but the cabin is missing

there’s paths all over
through jungles and salt lakes
and deserts and glacier lakes
but i’m tired of walking

i’m tired of choosing
maybe this path is better
if i just keep moving
there might be a cabin

i need to be still more often
take a moment to float
with my emotions
tap into what i truly feel
sometimes i’m too deep in
swimming without any sense of direction
thinking i can see clearly
but didn’t i already pass this place

too focused on my next move
that i forget to look
at the big picture, the grand ocean
it’s only when i stop moving
that i notice the motion

i can hear the internal dialogue
it was me who caused the fog

i have a pretty clear vision
view my future in colors of the sun
trust the process of discovering
until someone else comes along

thoughts and opinions of their own
clouding my vision
making me reconsider
am i wrong about my plan?
is it safety over adventure?
if my future not yellow but blue?
i don’t think that’s true

i do want to listen
but at a greater distance
let them speak their mind
they just might be colorblind